to be ? or not to be?

wanna be good, but it is not bad to be bad too~

wanna get first, but the max i get is second,

wanna get rich, but poor seem more challenging,

wanna buy everything, but have to spend wisely,

wanna study engineering, but chosen accounting,

wanna get first class, but passing is more than enough,

wanna get strong, but weak is acceptable,

wanna be ugly, but very lengzai hard to make it be,

wanna be feeder, but always godlike,

wanna fuck, but always get fucked by others,

wanna alone, but i'm not mr.lonely,

wanna tell you, but ur ear is not listening,

wanna trip, but it is too tired for me,

wanna freedom, but always locked by u,

wanna eat, but always shit out,

wanna get drunk, but coke is non-alcohol drink,

wanna be free, but work is too much,

wanna dota, but always no kaki,

wanna chatting, but my list is nobody,

wanna be hero, but happen only in dream,

wanna try dying, but there is no revive point,

wanna try something, but not dare,

wanna play piano, but don't know how to play,

wanna learn it, but no time,

wanna blogging, but don't know what to write,

wanna write story, but got no idea,

wanna touch u, but u r not allow,

wanna lying, but always tell the truth,

wanna get marry, but not now,

wanna dspd, but falling in love d.